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I almost killed my son

Posted by elijahmessage1888 on February 24, 2010 at 9:29 PM

About 10 years ago I found out my Girlfriend was pregnant. At the time I was enjoying my life partying, drinking, and I was taught by the world that abortion was ok, and I was selfish and I told her to abort the child. I didn't even commit to this girl and I was thinking all about self and I did not want to be tied down. I look at it now, and I think I was the most evil person who ever lived to think like that.

 

But about 6 months later I saw my sons foot in the ultra-sound. I felt like such a thoughtless jerk. I was smiling, my attitude totally changed, and though I wasnt' a Christian I felt truly sorry. It was something worth crying about. And he wasn't even born yet. I knew he was a real child in that womb. I saw his foot and I said "He has my feet" and I told my girlfriend it was a boy.

 

I've had some of the best times of my life with my son over the last 9 years. I'm trying to hold back the tears as I write this, because I almost murdered him. I really can't hold them back. He adores me, and looks up to me and thinks "My daddy is the best". I don't feel like the best because I almost killed him.

 

I have 3 children now, and I would do anything for there welfare. I don't think I could live with myself today and endure the thought that I murdered my first son because of my own selfishness. I thank God that my to be wife didnt listen to me.

 

I feel truly sorry for all the girls who have had an abortion because I know that they just killed a part of themselves. I know God is willing to forgive them, but they have something that they have to live with that I can't even imagine.

 

Pro 6:16 These six things doth the LORD hate: yea, seven are an abomination unto him:

Pro 6:17 A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood,

 

I don't have to live with having killed my son, but I do have the thought every day of how it feels to have did something like that. The least we can do for our child is give it for adoption if we truly believe we can't keep it.

 

Abortion is a sin, that doesn't just hurt innocent children, it affects the would be parents for the rest of their lives. God bless.

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2 Comments

Reply John
05:03 PM on March 23, 2010
The Catholic view on Abortion isn't correct. We would do well to guard against it. No "soul" enters at conception. It could be argued that a child becomes a Soul in the Biblical sense when it starts breathing. The Law of Moses doesn't treat the death of a fetus as if it were person. Still almost from the beginning there is human blood to be shed. All the warnings and prohibitions of scripture apply to its shedding.
Reply Sherl
03:14 AM on March 28, 2010
Thanks for sharing your experience. I totally agree with your sentiments about abortion. I'm so pleased your wife refused to have the abortion. Children should never have to pay for the sins of the adults. Children need to be loved, not murdered and if you have to give a child away at birth for it to be raised by others, then at least you have given that child life. Jesus said, Greater love hath no man that this; that a man lay down his life for his friends. Jesus gave His life for His enemies (the human race), so the least we can do is to arrange an adoption for a child that we can't care adequately for in this world. Thanks again for sharing your experience.